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Hello my loyal blog readers. I am sorry things have been so quiet around here. I had vowed to keep up with blogging, then I had a baby and my world got flipped upside down.
I will not lie. This has been ROUGH. I had incorrectly thought that my daughter would be a tiny clone of my son. She would like long car rides, love swinging in her swing. I could not be more wrong. Both the car seat and swing induce screaming!
When Grey was born, my milk never came in, despite my best efforts at helping it along. This time around, it did. I was elated. I was finally going to have the beautiful bonding experience that I had dreamed of! Um, wrong again. Breastfeeding is HARD work. Never ending work. The kind of work that has you constantly second guessing if your baby is getting enough to eat, if you’re producing enough, if her latch is right.
And the hormones. My goodness. To say I have been dealing with a bit of Postpartum Depression would be an understatement. I have a couple of very, very rough weeks. Questioning my position and ability as a parent. Questioning my love for my child. Questioning my choice in adding to our family. Starting medication and then deciding not to continue with it. Starting therapy. Starting to think positively. Having realizations.
I’ve finally let go. Just this week I realized that Winter is not Greyson. Winter is her own little person. She likes to be held like a sack of potatoes. She likes to walk around outside in the evening. She doesn’t like the swing or the car. She likes to be swaddled and sleeps best in her own space. She is the exact opposite of her brother. I need to try to figure HER out and stop feeling like a bad mommy because what worked for Grey in the early days does not work for her.
Yes, it took me 11 weeks, and many tear filled days to figure this out. And I haven’t blogged HERE, because I knew my blogging would sound absolutely nutty! 
I am back. I am starting to feel like me again. I am starting to understand my daughter. I am starting to feel the love. And sometimes, while nursing, I even feel that beautiful bonding moment that I had dreamed of.
With all that said, I am ITCHING to get back to work just a little bit. I’d like to start booking sessions again, on a very limited basis. I’ll be opening myself up for ONE birth shoot per month, starting in August. and will open up TWO portrait sessions per month, starting in August. If you’re interested in booking, contact me!
Also stay tuned for some site updates. I’ll be adding new products and pricing soon!
I’ll leave you with a few pictures of my cutie pies.
